October 19, 2016

The Same

I wanted to be a nurse.
Just the same as my mom.
I wanted the same life, the same love story, the 4 kids and a dog.

I wanted to know what was coming
Wanted it to be the same as I'd always dreamed.
Then my 18-year old self met you
And I knew I'd never be the same.

I wanted to be perfect for you
Just the same as you were for me.
I wanted perfect grades, perfect looks, perfect kids with your name.

I wanted everything to be as planned.
Wanted it the same as it was thought out to be.
Then our baby left
And I knew I'd never be the same.

I wanted to give up.
Just call it all lost.
I wanted to erase the memories, the fear, the failure that just brought the same pain.

I wanted my way or nothing.
Wanted what was supposed to be.
Then we saw his face on that ultrasound
And I knew I'd never be the same.

Now I don't need it all the same.
I don't need what I thought was right.
I just need you and him and our family forever.

I just want what I've been given.
Just the same as God always planned.
We'll see our precious baby,
And nothing will ever be the same.